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  Somehow he doubted P.J. had had equally easy solutions to her problems.

  She gazed at the ocean, the wind moving a stray curl across her face. She didn’t seem to feel it, or if she did, she didn’t care enough to push it away.

  He tried to picture her at twelve years old. She must’ve been tiny. Hell, she was tiny now. It wouldn’t have taken much of a man to overpower her and—

  The thought made him sick. But he had to know. He had to ask. “Did you ever…Did they ever…”

  She turned to look at him, and he couldn’t find any immediate answers in the bottomless darkness of her eyes.

  “There was one,” she said softly, staring at the ocean. “He didn’t back off when I threatened to call my uncle. Of course, I didn’t really have any uncle. It’s possible he knew that. Or maybe he was just too stoned to care. I had to go out the window to get away from him—only in my panic, I went out the wrong window. I went out the one without the fire escape. Once I was out there, I couldn’t go back. I went onto the ledge and I just stood there, sixteen stories up, scared out of my mind, staring at those little toy cars on the street, knowing if I slipped, I’d be dead, but certain if I went back inside I’d be as good as dead.” She looked at Harvard. “I honestly think I would’ve jumped before I would’ve let him touch me.”

  Harvard believed her. This man, whoever he’d been, may not have hurt P.J. physically, but he’d done one hell of a job on her emotionally and psychologically.

  He had to clear his throat before he could speak. “I don’t suppose you remember this son of a bitch’s name?” he asked.

  “Ron something. I don’t think I ever knew his last name.”

  He nodded. “Too bad.”

  “Why?”

  Harvard shrugged. “Nothing important. I was just thinking it might make me feel a little better to hunt him down and kick the hell out of him.”

  P.J. laughed—a shaky burst of air that was part humor and part surprise. “But he didn’t hurt me, Daryl. I took care of myself and…I was okay.”

  “Were you?” Harvard reached out for her. He knew he shouldn’t. He knew that just touching her lightly under the chin to turn her to face him would be too much. He knew her skin would be sinfully soft beneath his fingers, and he knew that once he touched her, he wouldn’t want to let go. But he wanted to look into her eyes, so he did. “Tell me this—are you still afraid of heights?”

  She didn’t need to answer. He saw the shock of the truth in her eyes before she pulled away. She stood up, moved toward the water, stopping on the edge of the beach, letting the waves wash over her feet.

  Harvard followed, waiting for her to look at him again.

  P.J.’s head was spinning. Afraid of heights? Terrified was more like it.

  She couldn’t believe he’d figured that out. She couldn’t believe she’d told him enough to give herself away. Steeling herself, she looked at him. “I can handle heights, Senior Chief. It’s not a problem.”

  She could tell from the look on his face he didn’t believe her.

  “It’s not a problem,” she said again.

  Damn. She’d told him too much.

  It was one thing to joke around about her dream house. But telling him about her problem with heights was going way too far.

  It would do her absolutely no good to let this man know her weaknesses. She had to have absolutely no vulnerabilities to coexist in his macho world. She could not be afraid of heights. She would not be. She could handle it—but not if he made it into an issue.

  P.J. rinsed her hands in the ocean. “We better get back if we want to have any lunch.”

  But Harvard blocked the way to where her sneakers and T-shirt were lying on the sand. “Thanks for taking the time to talk to me,” he said.

  She nodded, still afraid to meet his eyes. “Yeah, I’m glad we’re friends.”

  “It’s nice to be able to talk to someone in confidence—and know you don’t have to worry about other people finding out all your deep, dark secrets,” Harvard told her.

  P.J. did look at him then, but he’d already turned away.

  8

  “Man, it’s quiet around here today,” Harvard said as he came into the decaying Quonset hut that housed Alpha Squad’s office.

  Lucky was the only one around, and he looked up from one of the computers. “Hey, H.,” he said with a cheerful smile. “Where’ve you been?”

  “There was a meeting with the base commander that I absolutely couldn’t miss.” Harvard rolled his eyes. “It was vital that I go with the captain to listen to more complaints about having the squad temporarily stationed here. This base is regular Navy, and SEALs don’t follow rules. We don’t salute enough. We drive too fast. We make too much noise at the firing range. We don’t cut our hair.” He slid his hand over his cleanly shaved head. “Or we cut our hair too short. I tell you, there’s no pleasing some folks. Every week it’s the same, and every week we sit there, and I take notes, and the captain nods seriously and explains that the noise at the firing range occurs when we discharge our weapons and he’s sorry for the inconvenience, but one of the reasons Alpha Squad has the success record it does is that each and every one of us takes target practice each day, every day, and that’s not going to change. And then the supply officer steps forward and informs us that the next time we want another box of pencils, we’ve got to get ’em from Office Max. We appear to have used up our allotted supply.” He shook his head. “We got lectured on that for ten minutes.”

  “Ten minutes? On pencils?”

  Harvard grinned. “That’s right.” He turned toward his office. “Joe’s right behind me. He should be back soon—unless he gets cornered into sticking around for lunch.”

  Lucky made a face. “Poor Cat.”

  “This is what you have to look forward to, O’Donlon,” Harvard said with another grin. “It’s only a matter of time before you make an oh-six pay grade and get your own command. And then you’ll be rationing pencils, too.” He laughed “It’s not just a job—it’s an adventure.”

  “Gee, thanks, H. I’m all aquiver with anticipation.”

  Harvard pushed open his office door. “Do me a favor and dial the captain’s pager number. Give him an emergency code. Let’s get him out of there.”

  Lucky picked up the phone and quickly punched in a series of numbers. He dropped the receiver into the cradle with a clatter.

  “So where’s everyone this afternoon?” Harvard called as he took off his jacket and hung it over the chair at his desk. “I stopped by the classroom on my way over, but it was empty. They’re not all still at lunch, are they?”

  “No, they’re at the airfield. I’m heading over there myself in about ten minutes.” Lucky raised his voice to be heard through the open door.

  Harvard stopped rifling through the files on his desk. “They’re where?”

  “At the field. It’s jump day,” Lucky told him.

  “Today?” Harvard moved to the door to stare at the younger SEAL. “No way. That wasn’t scheduled until next week.”

  “Yeah, everything got shifted around, remember? We had to move the jump up a full week.”

  Harvard shook his head. “No. No, I don’t remember that.”

  Lucky swore. “It must’ve been the day you went to Boston. Yeah, I remember you weren’t around, so Wes took care of it. He said he wrote a memo about it. He said he left it on your desk.”

  Harvard’s desk was piled high with files and papers, but he knew exactly what was in each file and where each file was in each pile. It may have looked disorganized, but it wasn’t. He’d cleared his In basket at least ten times since he’d taken that day of personal leave. He’d caught up on everything he’d missed. There was no memo from Wesley Skelly on that desk.

  Or was there?

  Underneath the coffee mug with a broken handle that held his pens and some of those very pencils the base supply officer had been in a snit about, Harvard could see a flash of yellow paper. He lifted the mug a
nd turned the scrap of paper over.

  This was it.

  Wes had written an official memo on the inside of an M&M’s wrapper. It was documentation of the rescheduled jump date, scribbled in barely legible pencil.

  “I’m going to kill him,” Harvard said calmly. “I’m going to find him, and I’m going to kill him.”

  “You don’t have to look far to find him,” Lucky said. “He’s with the finks in the classroom at the main hangar. He’s helping Blue teach ’em the basics of skydiving.”

  Harvard shook his head. “If I’d known the jump was today, I would’ve made arrangements to skip this morning’s meeting. I wanted to be here to make it clear to the finks that participating in this exercise is optional.” He looked sharply at O’Donlon. “Were you there when Blue gave his speech? Do they understand they don’t have to do this?”

  Lucky shrugged. “Yeah. They’re all up for it, though. It’s no big deal.”

  But it was a big deal. Harvard knew that for P.J. it had to be a very, very big deal.

  When he’d figured out yesterday that she was afraid of heights, he’d known about the skydiving jump, but he’d thought it was a week away. If he’d known otherwise, he would’ve warned her then and there. He could’ve told her that choosing not to participate didn’t matter one bit in the big picture.

  The purpose of the exercise was not to teach the finks to be expert skydivers. There was no way they could do that with only one day and only one jump. When they’d set up the program, the captain had thought a lesson in skydiving would give the agents perspective on the kind of skills the SEALs needed to succeed as a counterterrorist team.

  It was supposed to underscore the message of the entire program—let the SEALs do what they do best without outside interference.

  Harvard looked at his watch. It was just past noon. “O’Donlon, is the jump still scheduled for thirteen-thirty?”

  “It is,” Lucky told him. “I’m going over to help out. You know me, I never turn down an opportunity to jump.”

  Harvard took a deep breath. More than an hour. Good. He still had time. He could relax and take this calmly. He could change out of this blasted dress uniform instead of screaming over to the airfield in a panic.

  The phone rang. It had to be Joe Cat, answering his page.

  Harvard picked it up. “Rescue squad.”

  Joe covered a laugh by coughing. “Sit rep, please.” The captain was using his officer’s voice, and Harvard knew that wherever he was, he wasn’t alone.

  “We’re having a severe pencil shortage, Captain,” Harvard said rapidly, in his best imitation of a battle-stressed officer straight from Hollywood’s Central Casting. “I think you better get down here right away to take care of it.”

  Joe coughed again, longer and louder this time. “I see.”

  “So sorry to interrupt your lunch, sir, but the men are in tears. I’m sure the commander will understand.”

  Joe’s voice sounded strangled. “I appreciate your calling.”

  “Of course, if you’d prefer to stay and dine with the—”

  “No, no. No, I’m on my way. Thank you very much, Senior Chief.”

  “I love you, too, Captain,” Harvard said and hung up the phone.

  Lucky was on the floor, laughing. Harvard nudged him with his toe and spoke in his regular voice. “I’m changing out of this ice-cream suit. Don’t you dare leave for the airfield without me.”

  The half of a chicken-salad sandwich P.J. had forced down during lunch was rolling in her stomach.

  Lieutenant Blue McCoy stood in front of the group of SEALs and FInCOM agents, briefing them on the afternoon’s exercise.

  P.J. tried to pay attention as he recited the name of the aircraft that would take them to an altitude from which they’d jump out of the plane.

  Jump out of the plane.

  P.J. took a deep breath. She could do this. She knew she could do this. She was going to hate it, but just like going to the dentist, time would keep ticking, and the entire ordeal would eventually be over and done with.

  “We’ll be going out of the aircraft in teams of two,” Blue said in his thick Southern drawl. “You will stay with your jump buddy for the course of the exercise. If you become separated during landing, you must find each other immediately upon disposing of your chute. Remember, we’ll be timing you from the moment you step out of that plane to the moment you check in at the assigned extraction point. If you reach the extraction point without your partner, you’re automatically disqualified. Does everyone understand?”

  P.J. nodded. Her mouth was too dry to murmur a reply.

  The door opened at the back of the room, and Blue paused and smiled a greeting. “About time you boys got here.”

  P.J. turned to see Harvard closing the door behind him. He was wearing camouflage pants tucked securely into black boots and a snugly fitting dark green T-shirt. He was looking directly at her from under the brim of his cap. He nodded just once, then turned his attention to McCoy.

  “Sorry to interrupt,” he said. It wasn’t until he moved toward the front of the room that P.J. noticed Lucky had been standing beside him. “Have you worked up the teams yet, Lieutenant?”

  Blue nodded. “I have the list right here, Senior Chief.”

  “Mind doing some quick revising so I can get in on the action?”

  “’Course not,” Blue replied. He looked at the room. “Why don’t y’all take a five-minute break?”

  P.J. wasn’t the only one in the room who was nervous. Greg Greene went to the men’s room for the fourth time in half an hour. The other men stood and stretched their legs. She sat there, wishing she could close her eyes and go to sleep, wishing that when she woke up it would be tomorrow morning and this day would be behind her, most of all wishing Harvard had given her some kind of warning that today’s challenge would involve jumping out of an airplane thousands of feet above the earth.

  As she watched, Harvard leaned against the table to look at the list. He supported himself with his arms, and his muscles stood out in sharp relief. For once, she let herself look at him, hoping for a little distraction.

  The man was sheer perfection. And speaking of distractions, his shirt wasn’t the only thing that fit him snugly. His camouflage pants hugged the curve of his rear end sinfully well. Why on earth anyone would want to camouflage that piece of art was beyond her.

  He was deep in discussion with Blue, then both men paused to glance at her, and she quickly looked away. What was Harvard telling the lieutenant? It was clear they were talking about her. Was Harvard telling McCoy all she’d let slip yesterday at the beach? Were they considering the possibility that she might freeze with fear and end up putting more than just herself in danger? Were they going to refuse to let her make the jump?

  She glanced at them, and Harvard was still watching her, no doubt taking in the cold sweat that was dampening her shirt and beading on her upper lip. She knew she could keep her fear from showing in her eyes and on her face, but she couldn’t keep from perspiring, and she couldn’t stop her heart from pounding and causing her hands to shake.

  She was scared to death, but she was damned if she was going to let anyone tell her she couldn’t make this jump.

  As she watched, Harvard spoke again to Blue. Blue nodded, took out a pen and began writing on the paper.

  Harvard came down the center aisle and paused next to her chair.

  “You okay?” he asked quietly enough so that no one else could hear.

  She was unable to hold his gaze. He was close enough to smell her fear and to see that she was, in fact, anything but okay. She didn’t bother to lie. “I can do this.”

  “You don’t have to.”

  “Yes, I do. It’s part of this program.”

  “This jump is optional.”

  “Not for me, it’s not.”

  He was silent for a moment. “There’s nothing I can say to talk you out of this, is there?”

  P.J. met his gaze. “No, Seni
or Chief, there’s not.”

  He nodded. “I didn’t think so.” He gave her another long look, then moved to the back of the room.

  P.J. closed her eyes, drawing in a deep breath. She wanted to get this over with. The waiting was killing her.

  “Okay,” Blue said. “Listen up. Here’re the teams. Schneider’s with Greene, Farber’s with me. Bobby’s with Wes, and Crash is with Lucky. Richards, you’re with Senior Chief Becker.”

  P.J. turned to look at Harvard. He was gazing at her, and she knew this was his doing. If he couldn’t talk her out of the jump, he was going to go with her, to baby-sit her on the way down.

  “Out in the other room, you’ll find a jumpsuit, a helmet and a belt pack with various supplies,” Blue continued. “Including a length of rope.”

  Farber raised his hand. “What’s the rope for?”

  Blue smiled. “Just one of those things that might come in handy,” he said. “Any other questions?”

  The room was silent.

  “Let’s get our gear and get to the plane,” Blue said.

  Harvard sat next to P.J. and fastened his seat belt as the plane carrying the team went wheels up.

  Sure enough, P.J. was a white-knuckle flyer. She clung to the armrests as if they were her only salvation. But her head was against the seat, and her eyes were closed. To the casual observer, she was totally relaxed and calm.

  She’d glanced at him briefly as he sat down, then went back to studying the insides of her eyelids.

  Harvard took the opportunity to look at her. She was pretty, but he’d had his share of pretty women before, many of them much more exotic-looking than P.J.

  It was funny. He was used to gorgeous women throwing themselves at his feet, delivering themselves up to him like some gourmet meal on a silver platter. They were always the ones in pursuit. All he’d ever had to do was sit back and wait for them to approach him.

  But P.J. was different. With P.J., he was clearly the one doing the chasing. And every time he moved closer, she backed away.

  It was annoying—and as intriguing as hell.