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  Dear Kelly,

  Another day dawns and I am still here in this damned miserable cell. But then you come, if only in my dreams….

  You come after sunset. Tonight you are sixteen, and when you smile, I suddenly realize you are wearing your prom dress. You are so beautiful, my heart nearly stops beating.

  You lean forward to kiss me, and I can feel your soft lips, smell your perfume. You take me with you, back in time, and for a while I am out of here. I sit with you in my sports car, wearing my tuxedo, and we kiss.

  You are still so young, and I still don’t know any better. I can’t stop myself.

  I love you.

  Love, T.

  SUZANNE BROCKMANN

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  SUZANNE BROCKMANN

  lives just west of Boston in a house always filled with her friends—actors and musicians and storytellers and artists and teachers. When not writing award-winning romances about U.S. Navy SEALs, among others, she sings in an a capella group called Serious Fun, manages the professional acting careers of her two children, volunteers at the Appalachian Benefit Coffeehouse and always answers letters from readers. Send her a SASE along with your letter to P.O. Box 5092, Wayland, MA 01778.

  To my wonderful mother, Lee Brockmann,

  who’s been waiting a long time for this one.

  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 1

  Kelly O’Brien lugged her heavy canvas bag of books into the back door of the university newspaper office. The spring day was hot, and a trickle of sweat dripped uncomfortably down her back.

  She heaved the book bag onto her desk with a crash, and pushed back the damp strands of long, dark hair that had escaped from her bun. With a sigh, she peeled off her jacket and undid the top buttons of her sleeveless blouse, shaking the neckline slightly to let fresh air circulate against her overheated body.

  “Psst.”

  Kelly looked up to see Marcy Reynolds, the school newspaper’s student photographer, hissing at her. Marcy’s brown eyes were lit with excitement, her pixielike face alive with curiosity.

  “There’s some guy sitting in the front office, waiting for you,” Marcy said, handing Kelly several pink phone message slips. “No. Correction—this is not just some guy. This is a Man, with a capital M. And quite possibly the most gorgeous man who has ever crossed the threshold of this humble establishment.”

  Kelly smiled. “Oh, come on—”

  “I’m serious,” the younger woman said. As she shook her head, her large hoop earrings bumped the sides of her face. “We’re talking major heart-attack material. Very tall, blond, green eyes—he’s a dead ringer for Mel Gibson’s cuter, younger brother. The man is a walking blue jeans ad, Kelly. His legs are about a mile long, and those buns…”

  Kelly laughed in disbelief. “He sounds too good to be true,” she said.

  “He looks like one of the heroes from those romance novels you’re writing. He’s been sitting there for forty-five minutes,” Marcy complained, running her fingers through her short black hair, “totally blowing my concentration.”

  “Is he a student?”

  “He’s too old,” Marcy said. “I mean, unless he took some time off from school, but not only a few years, like you. Like serious time, maybe ten years. I’d say he’s maybe thirty. He’s got those sexy little crinkly laugh lines around his eyes. Check him out—he’s a total babe.”

  “Maybe he’s a professor,” Kelly said. “Did he say what he wants?”

  “You’re what he wants.” Marcy smirked. “That’s all he said. I told him I didn’t know when you’d be back—that you could be gone for hours. But he just said he’d wait. He said something about waiting seven years, and that another few hours wouldn’t kill him. Have you been keeping this man on the shelf for seven years?”

  “Seven years ago I was only sixteen,” Kelly said. She moved to the glass partition that separated the front office from the back. The blinds were down and shut, and she moved one aluminum slat a fraction of an inch and peeked out.

  Her heart stopped.

  T. Jackson Winchester the Second.

  It couldn’t be.

  But it was.

  He was the only person in the outer office and he sat by the door, one ankle resting on one knee, leaning casually back in his chair, as comfortable as if he were in his own living room. He wore a royal-blue polo shirt with both buttons open, revealing his sun-kissed neck and chest. His shirt was tucked into a pair of faded blue jeans that hugged his muscular thighs. On his feet he wore Docksiders but no socks. His ankles were strong and tan.

  He was reading the latest copy of the school newspaper, and his eyes were down, hidden by long, dark lashes. Kelly didn’t need to see his eyes to know they were a remarkable mix of colors, with a ring of yellow gold, like solar flares, that surrounded his pupils. The edges of his irises were brilliant green. And sandwiched between the green and the gold was the ocean. Like the ocean, his eyes changed. They could be stormy gray, or dark blue-black, or even a deep, mysterious shade of green. She could remember looking into his eyes, into a warm swirl of colored fire, his lips curving up into a smile as he bent to kiss her—

  Kelly shook her head, pushing the thought away. She looked at him again, closely this time, searching for signs of age, signs of change.

  He was wearing his golden hair longer than she’d ever seen him wear it before, hanging down several inches over his collar, thick and wavy and blond and soft. His face had a few more lines, but if anything, he was even more handsome than ever.

  He looked really good.

  But he’d always looked good. He’d looked good when she’d first met him, and he’d been hung over at the time. She could still remember that morning as if it were yesterday, not eleven years ago….

  Twelve-year-old Kelly had opened the door quietly, carefully, then slipped into the darkened guest bedroom. She had heard the clock ticking, and the sound of slow, steady breathing.

  Her brother Kevin’s mysterious college roommate was lying sprawled out on the bed, long legs escaping from beneath the covers that were twisted around him. One arm was flung above his head, the other lay across his bare chest.

  His name was T. Jackson Winchester the Second. Kevin had called from school to tell her parents about the freshman dorm and about his roommate. Kelly had been particularly impressed by the length of his roommate’s name. Kevin had told their father that T. Jackson was from Cape Cod, and he drove a Triumph Spitfire.

  What did the T. stand for? Kelly had wondered. And what color was the Spitfire?

  Red. She’d made a point of looking out onto the driveway first thing when she woke up. The S
pitfire was shiny and red, with a black convertible top.

  Kelly stepped closer to T. Jackson Winchester the Second, to get a better look at him in the dimness of the room, to see what a rich college roommate looked like.

  He had an awful lot of muscles. Kevin was eighteen, and he had lots of muscles, too, but Kelly had never given his muscles a second glance. He was her brother, sometimes a pain in the neck, sometimes a creep, but mostly fun.

  This guy, however, was not her brother.

  She swallowed hard, looking down at his messy blond hair and his handsome face. He was definitely a ten. A living ten. Kelly had seen some tens before on television or in the movies. But before this, she’d never met one face-to-face.

  His face was perfectly shaped with a long, straight nose and a strong jawline. His eyebrows were two slightly curved light brown lines above the thick eyelashes that lay against the smooth, tanned skin of his cheeks. His lips were neither too thin nor too thick, and nicely shaped. Even in sleep, they tended to curve upward, as if a smile was his natural expression.

  Kelly leaned even closer, wondering what color his eyes were, then wondering with a flash of giddiness what color his underpants were. She clapped her hand over her mouth to keep a laugh from escaping and backed away from the bed.

  She’d come into this room with a purpose, and although checking out T. Jackson Winchester the Second was interesting, that wasn’t why she’d crept in. She moved quietly to the closet. The door was closed, and she silently slid it open, carefully stopping it before it bumped the frame.

  Oh, man, her mother had moved her rock-collecting gear up onto the top shelf.

  Kelly was tall for her age, but she still couldn’t reach the backpack that sat on the top shelf in the closet. Not without climbing on a chair.

  The only chair in the room was clear over on the other side, below the shaded window. Stealthily Kelly moved toward it. T. Jackson Winchester the Second had draped his jeans and shirt over the back of the chair last night before he climbed into bed.

  Staggered into bed was more like it. Kelly wrinkled her nose as she smelled the odor of stale cigarette smoke and beer that seemed to cling to T. Jackson’s clothes. He and Kevin had been to some kind of wild party last night. Some illegal wild party.

  The drinking age in Massachusetts was twenty-one. She’d heard her father arguing with Kevin about that. Her brother insisted if he was old enough to register for the draft, then he was old enough to drink. Her father had countered by saying if he was old enough to drink, then he was also old enough to always pick a designated driver. Dad had added that if he ever caught Kevin drinking and driving, no matter how old he was, he’d be grounded for ten years.

  From the looks of ol’ T. Jackson Winchester the Second, Kevin had probably been last night’s designated driver.

  Kelly dropped the clothes onto the floor and wrestled the heavy chair toward the closet. But she didn’t see the big high-top sneakers that were lying in the way, and she tripped, hitting the floor with a crash and a yelp as the chair fell on top of her.

  Before she could move, the chair was pulled away. “Are you all right?” T. Jackson Winchester the Second said raspily, frowning down at her with concern.

  Red.

  He was wearing boxer shorts and they were red. As Kelly stared way, way up at him, she wondered whether it was a coincidence, or if he always matched his underwear to the color of the car he was driving.

  “Did you hurt yourself, kid?” he asked, after clearing his throat noisily and swallowing hard as if his mouth was dry. He reached out a hand to help her to her feet.

  His hand was big and warm, with long, strong fingers and carefully manicured nails. Kelly let go quickly, afraid to be caught clinging foolishly, grinning at him like an idiot.

  “I’ll live,” she said. She was going to get some big bruise on her leg where the chair had hit her, but she wasn’t about to tell T. Jackson Winchester the Second about it.

  As she watched, he crossed to the bedside table and drained a glass of water that was sitting there.

  “Ugh,” she said, wrinkling her nose. “Isn’t that warm?”

  He glanced at her, putting the empty glass back down. “It’s wet,” he said. “That’s all that matters.” He ran his hands over his face and looked longingly at the bed. “What time is it?” he asked.

  “About quarter to nine,” she told him. “How tall are you exactly?”

  He sat down on the bed, resting his forehead in his hands. “Exactly?” he asked, looking up at her through his fingers, a glint of amusement in his eyes. “Six foot four and one quarter inches.”

  “That’s tall.” Kelly nodded. “I’m Kelly O’Brien,” she added.

  T. Jackson Winchester the Second straightened up the best that he could and held out his hand. “Pleased to meet you, Kelly O’Brien,” he said, somehow managing to smile. “I’m Jax, Kevin’s roommate.”

  Kelly took his hand, shaking it firmly. “T. Jackson Winchester the Second,” she said. “I know.”

  Green eyes. He had green eyes, rimmed with red. “Christmas in October,” she said, and grinned.

  Somehow he understood that she was talking about his eyes, and he smiled ruefully. “I look bad, huh?”

  Kelly nodded. “You look like hell.”

  He laughed with a flash of straight, white teeth. Forget ten. He was clearly an eleven.

  “Sorry I woke you up,” she said. “I was trying to get my backpack down from the closet shelf.”

  “This isn’t your room, is it?” he said, frowning slightly as he looked around at the impersonal guest room, at the blandly patterned bedspread, the flower print on the curtains, the beige carpeting.

  “Nah,” Kelly said. “I just use the closet because I’m overflowing my own. What does the T. stand for?”

  He looked at her blankly. “The…what?”

  “In your name,” she said patiently. “You know. T. Jackson…? And you call yourself Jacks? Like the game? Or is it a plural, as if there’s two of you?”

  He laughed again, then winced as if his head hurt. “No, there’s only one of me. It’s spelled J-A-X,” he said. “It’s a nickname.”

  “And the T.?”

  “Tyrone,” he said with a grimace.

  “Ew.”

  “Yeah. That’s why I keep it an initial.”

  “Tyrone,” Kelly said slowly. “Ty. Well, it’s not really that bad. But ‘Jax’ is pretty weird. Why don’t you go for the entire initial thing? You know, call yourself T.J.?”

  He stood slowly, steadying himself on one of the bedposts. “It’s taken,” he said. “My father is T.J.”

  “The First.”

  “You got it.”

  “Doesn’t that actually make you Junior?” Kelly asked critically. “I mean, this ‘the Second’ stuff is kind of pompous, don’t you think?”

  Jax grinned, crossing toward the closet. “If you ask me, the whole Winchester existence is kind of pompous.”

  “I’ll call you T.,” she decided. “I like that better than Jax.”

  He turned toward her. “Look, if I get your backpack down for you, will you let me go back to sleep?”

  She smiled. “Promise to take me for a ride later in your Spitfire and you’ve got a deal.”

  Jackson smiled back at her, his warm green eyes taking her in from the top of her boyishly short hair, to her faded turtleneck with the too-short sleeves and her skinny wrists sticking out, to her ragged jeans and right down to her worn-out cowboy boots. He stared at her for so long that Kelly wiped her nose, wondering if maybe it was running.

  But his smile slowly faded, and he frowned down at himself, as if suddenly aware he was half-naked. “I probably shouldn’t be standing here in my underwear, talking to you like this.”

  “I’ve seen Kevin in his underwear more times than I can count,” Kelly scoffed. “It’s no big deal.”

  “Yeah, but Kev’s your brother,” Jax said. “I’m not.”

  Looking at him, Kelly wa
s glad that he wasn’t. No one should have a brother who looked as good as T. Jackson Winchester the Second.

  “Something tells me that your father wouldn’t approve.” Jax grinned. “And I don’t want to be forced into any kind of a shotgun wedding, no matter how pretty you are.”

  Kelly felt herself blush. “Don’t be a jerk,” she warned him. “I know exactly what I look like.” She was a skinny beanpole with a faintly feminine face. If she stretched her imagination, she could use the word pretty to describe her eyes. But only her eyes.

  “Is this what you need?” Jax asked, pointing to a blue backpack in the closet.

  She nodded.

  He swung it down, but it was heavier than he thought, and he had to lunge to keep from dropping it. “God,” he said, “what have you got in here? Rocks?”

  Kelly smiled, taking the knapsack from him, her muscles straining as she slipped it over her shoulder. “Yeah. It’s my rock collection.”

  Jax looked surprised, then he laughed. “You’re into geology, huh?” he said. “Will you show me your collection later?”

  “Yeah.” Kelly nodded, smiling at him again. She turned to go, but looked back at him, her hand on the doorknob. “T. Jackson Winchester the Second,” she said, “you’re not a dweeb. I like you. My brother’s lucky he got you for a roommate.”

  He’d laughed again as Kelly had gone out the door. “I like you, too, Kelly,” she’d heard him say. “And I’m lucky that I got a roommate with a sister like you. See you later….”

  Kelly now lowered the slat on the blinds, and looking down, realized that she had scrunched the phone message slips she’d been holding into a tight wad of paper.

  “Do you know him?” Marcy’s words finally penetrated.

  “Yeah,” Kelly said slowly.

  “Who is he?”

  Good question. Was he a childhood friend? A friend of the family? An almost-lover? Kelly went for the obvious. “He was my brother’s college roommate,” she said. She turned to Marcy suddenly. “Do me a favor and tell him that I just called and told you that I wasn’t coming back in today.”